Being frustrated blows chunks

Currently waiting on my therapist to join with me in a video call and she's ten minutes late. I'm not going to waste time just staring at my phone screen when I can get other things done.

Had a early morning visitor of a toad that I almost stepped on. I took pictures of him and then put him somewhere else where he would be safe. Hopefully he is safe from bumbling humans

Got a marriage proposal from a neighbor that has a love/hate relationship with another neighbor here. Yeah...I'll pass. I know what I want even if I can't have it. I'm not settling for anything else. I'd rather love someone that I want than just go for anyone. Not saying the guy isn't nice. Just I have no interest in getting involved with that mess. I think he just said it anyway to get more treats from me. lol.

I have been reminded of the person I used to be with asking for help all the time and not getting my shit together. I would get myself into financial trouble then ask someone from my family for help. Eventually that stopped as I chose to become homeless than ask for any more help from other people. I was embarassed and ashamed of the person I was back then and it took a lot of work to turn things around.

My life is not perfect, and whose is? I am content as I have everything I need to do more than just survive. Thing is, there is a family member that I used to ask for help, now doing the same thing I did. They have themselves in financial trouble and expect to be bailed out. I wonder how they would do, going down the hard path that I did. There were times I didn't think I had the strength to get through the next day. Would they be strong enough to totally change their life around and go through hell and back for that change.